IF I HAD YOU
Deborah Bedford
Warner Faith
ISBN: 0-446-69042-2
August 2004
Inspirational

 

This is the story of a family including Nora Crabtree, her husband Ben, and her daughter Tess. Nora and her daughter have experienced long term tension and conflict and through much of the book, are estranged. For a long period of time the teenage Tess is gone from the home, her whereabouts unknown to her parents. Then she abruptly returns, pregnant and unmarried. She chooses to give birth rather than abort the pregnancy and Tansy is born.

Tess ultimately leaves Tansy with her parents. Tess' eventual return to the family, the feelings this evokes, and the ways that she and Nora must deal with their relationship creates the rest of the story.

Other characters populate this book and include Nora's church friends, her work friends at the fabric store and Creede Franklin, the young man who was Tess' first love as an adolescent. The father of Tess' baby also figures prominently in the story and readers are given a glimpse of the dangerous life of a gang.

This novel was emotionally painful to read. The author beautifully captures the subtleties of unresolved parental issues and the ways these can negatively influence a parent/child relationship. The eroding gestalt of negative feelings and criticisms are depicted with painful clarity. This is a distressed family and no amount of faith or involvement in the church is able to take this away.

I found myself becoming annoyed with Nora, her lack of awareness of her impact on her daughter, and her difficulty confronting her own issues. Yet, the book is about humans, with all their imperfections and sins. With this in mind, the author has beautifully crafted a thought-provoking story that in the end, is all about abortion. This novel was well-written and developed but I can't say that I actually enjoyed it. Readers should make their own determination.

 

Reviewed by  Jeri Neal

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